Wow, amazing how much can happen in a year! After feeling entirely burnt out in 2015 I decided to put everything in storage and attended yoga teacher training last winter in Thailand. It blew open my mind, gave me new tools to heal my body and revealed aspects of my spirit that I didn’t even know existed. What I thought it would just be a quick one month retreat and-then-back-to-business-as-usual turned into a deep 5 month exploration of consciousness. A subsequent journey through Thailand and Bali provided a backdrop for revealing all sorts of old junk and a lingering, unresolved anxiety at the core of my character. The more I observed, the more I realized that this subtle yet persistent feeling had been influencing my behavior since childhood. In fact I’d crafted a complex world of distraction as a way to avoid it. I didn’t feel like I really belonged anywhere. I never really felt at ease. And no matter what I achieved outwardly or how elaborately I distracted myself, the feeling was always there, just under the surface until it bubbled up in outbursts of unresolved emotion.
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After a rigorous month of emotional, physical and spiritual boot camp I officially graduated yoga teacher training TODAY! There were many brilliant highs as well as some soul-wrenching lows but through all of it a new and improved version of myself has been born. This latest version comes equipped with increased patience, compassion, acceptance and gratitude for myself and others. Also some awesome new flexibility, and much more to come! My final exam included teaching a class to my fellow students. The theme for my class was “Lunch break at a coworking space” 🙂 I put on some great tunes, got the bodies moving and grooving and rocked it! While I’m extremely proud of my accomplishment it is also very clear that there are still a lot of work ahead along my path of self discovery. Rather than feel disheartened or intimidated as I sometimes used to, I’m more ready than ever to face anything that comes my way. Bring it on, Universe!
I’m wrapping up the 4th week (of 5) of this unbelievable yoga training experience. All of my joints are aching as my bones are literally realigning in my body. Besides being the most physically demanding thing that I’ve ever undertaken it’s also been a deeply profound opportunity to rethink how I see myself, others and the world around me. My gratitude grows more deeply every day for all aspects of this human experience and the lessons each has to teach. Especially the tough stuff 🙂 I’m not sure where my next stop will be but wherever I go I’m excited to continue reuniting my mind with my body. I might stick around this magical island for the foreseeable future. Or not. I’ll make the decision next week. For now it’s the good life of amazing food, happy people, healthy activities, fresh fruit shakes and massages. And it’s all dirt cheap. Did I mention the $10 massages? So why leave so soon?
In other news Mark Steven Roemer and I MCd the local bars open mic night a few nights ago. We intro’d about 15 different acts and threw in some of or own skits such as announcements from the hotel’s spa (chakra waxing, 432hz sonic colonics, Thai chili steam room and jelly fish plunge, becoming your highest Alphalpha male workshop, communing with nature at the mosquito meditation and of course the world famous deep issue massage.) Roemer also channelled his sassy southern homegirl Deciduous for dream interpreting and I unveiled D.Lux, my inner transformational hip hop freestyle poet. A beautifully bizarre memory indeed.